Well, Hello! Can't believe it's been close to 2 years since I've written on this blog. SO much has happened in that time. I'm not even sure where to start with this entry!
For any of you who know me, know that in April of 2013 I started a new journey with a company called ItWorks Global. Maybe you've heard of their body wraps that will help tighten, tone, and firm any desired area in just 45 minutes (if not, check them out here) . Well, I joined this company on a total whim and didn't expect much to come out of it. BOY, was I wrong! In just a few short weeks my life had changed drastically. I couldn't believe how in love I was with the products & how financially our life had done a 180 from just a few short months before that.
It didn't take me long to realize that the surrogacy was meant to fall thru. Had everything gone thru with the surrogacy, as planned, then I wouldn't have taken this opportunity and ran with it, like I did. I would have never looked for anything more because I would have been plenty busy carrying someone elses baby!
So, fast forward to spring of this year. My mind started wandering all over the place and lots of questions arose. Should we have another baby? We have the time and we can support a 3rd baby, should we start trying? What about adoption? Steven was adopted and being able to pay it forward to another person, would be amazing. It was something we had/have talked about but never really put any effort into a decision. I felt like my thoughts were all over the place and I was having a difficult time making sense of everything. We've always said we were done with just 2 kids. The twins keep us very busy and so we didn't know if having another child was in the cards for us. I really think 4 is a perfect number in a family too. I had a friend once say "The world is totally made for 4! 4 people fit at a booth in a restaurant, 4 people fit in a car, 4 people everywhere!" And I feel like she had a really good point. Our family really works well with 4 of us. Steven and I can each focus on one boy at a time and not feel like our time is divided. And this says nothing badly to those of you who are blessed with more children!! There is another part of me that thinks it would be really fun to have a large family with lots of kiddos. But, my patience level, I am not sure would agree with that :) So, maybe 4 is the perfect number for us, as a family. So where are all my thoughts coming from?
Anyways, thru all of these months I've tried to reflect on a lot of things and try to make sense of where my heart is to be led. I kept praying about it knowing that eventually there would be a sign on what road I am supposed to head down. And, in the middle of September of this year... a big neon sign is exactly what I received. :)
When the last surrogacy fell thru I was so heartbroken and I knew that
if I were to ever consider going thru the process again, the only way I
would, is if it fell into my lap. If it didn't involve being matched
with a stranger again because all of that was just so hard on me
emotionally. And, I truly believe if surrogacy is meant to be part of
my journey.... it will be.
Someone who I know and who is dear to my heart, called me on September 11 and thru a shaky voice asked me if I had any interest or desire to do a surrogacy for her and her husband. Immediately my heart swelled up with so much joy! And I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I first applied for surrogacy in October of 2011 after a year of consideration. So, all this time later and my heart is still feeling led to do this. Of course I told her "yes!" and it didn't take long for us to start making some plans and arrangements.
This is all very early on in the process but so far it's super exciting and its moving forward. My favorite part about this particular situation is that this is a couple in the US, so there is no need for secrecy!! I get to be as open as I want on this blog and prepare for LOTS of photos if this journey leads us into a pregnancy. I have no reason to hide anything and thats what my wish has been all along. I can't wait to share all of the process!!
Just since we haven't gotten the go ahead from doctors or lawyers, I will wait to announce this couples name, until she has made the announcements on her end. (my lips are sealed so don't try to get it out of me; haha)
SO excited!!!
From the sounds of it, things might be moving along pretty quickly, so I am sure this blog will be updated more regularly! Stay tuned! Thanks for sticking with me throughout all of this. I'm thinking this might be exactly as it was meant to be...
